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Partytime!!!
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Oct. 9th, 2007 @ 04:12 pm
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Promenade Home!
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Jun. 24th, 2007 @ 09:32 am
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Well it's Sunday morning and since I haven't posted in quite awhile, I decided to sit down and do this while the clothes are washing. God I hate laundry day, but at least I'll get to play Playstation at Mom's for a bit later :-)
Anyhow.....
So the biggest news I have thus far is that I have finally been transferred back to Muncie, and I no longer have to wilt away in Anderson. That town should just sink into a deep dark hole and catch on fire while falling apart. All hatred for the town aside, I do miss my old co-workers a bunch already. But, thankfully I do have some really nice new co-workers so the transition won't be that bad. We are all dealing with the newness of the store and all that it has to offer. It is so pretty and clean and BRIGHT! The only downside so far is when I pulled a muscle in my back when we were setting up, but I'm nursing that just fine.
Speaking of my bum back....the evening following my injury and the couple days that followed were total pain hell. Luckily, I have a gracious and caring boyfriend in Randy. He stayed home with me both days I was off work to take care of me since I could barely move. I mostly slept anyhow due to the pain meds, but I wouldn't have been able to do anything else with out him there. You really find out exactly how much someone loves you when they take care of you like that. I had no doubts, but by his actions, Randy must love me a whole hell of a lot.
This past Friday night Randy, Topher and myself all participated in the Relay for Life here in Muncie. We were involved via my Mom, who is a cancer survivor of nearly 13 years. It was quite an enjoyable experience. Sadly, we missed the opening ceremonies which, from what I hear, were quite moving. We mostly ran the booth that Mom's workplace had set up as a fundraiser. We all doled out walking tacos, bottled water and coney dogs to benefit cancer research. I think at last count before we left we had made about 160 dollars, which is awesome to say the least. Mom and I walked one lap together when they lit the luminaries for the people who had survived and for those that had sadly passed on. We held on to each other tightly and walked, tears in our eyes, simply thankful that we still had each other to hold on to.
On Saturday I had to try to track down my paycheck. It had gone to my old store and I had one of my old technicians bring it to Muncie, since he lives here. Let's just say that I hope no one targets his house for a burglary, cause it was just screaming to be robbed with the door wide open. I got my check nonetheless, so I was happy. We played bingo on Saturday night where I won a whopping 17 bucks, but I guess it's better than nothing and at least I finally won something.
The point is I'm addicted to gambling...
Really I'm just glad to be working in the town where I live and I'm glad that Randy is home for good and doesn't have to be in Indy all the time now. Yay for home!
Find your grail,
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Jun. 9th, 2007 @ 12:05 am
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You ever wonder who you're losing it for?
Yeah, I do, actually......
I'm just gonna keep eating my potatoes and drinking my rum and trying to forget shit now.
Peace out,
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Hahahahaha!
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May. 2nd, 2007 @ 10:23 pm
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Vegging Out
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May. 1st, 2007 @ 08:49 pm
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Over the weekend, I saw a wonderful movie starring Molly Shannon and Peter Saarsgard called "Year of the Dog." The movie put me in the mind of a dark comedy only not as tragic and actually it had a good and redeeming ending.
Anyhow...
After watching the film, I was compelled to resurrect an old lifestyle choice that I once made nearly a decade ago. I have decided to convert my diet to one of vegetarianism, not only for moral reason but also for health reasons. Now, don't worry...I'm not going to turn into one of those PETA literature toting Nazis that refuses to let anyone around me eat meat or wear leather etc. This is a personal decision only for me and has zero to do with anyone else except maybe animals. So there you have it, I'm not eating meat...why is it such a big deal. It's not unless people choose to make it that way. So anyhow...yeah....
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I'm not amazing anymore, not even close....I don't even know what the fuck I am anymore.
I wish I knew exactly how to articulate my feelings without coming off all "pity party for Justin"
It's incredibly difficult knowing that you are doing things the wrong way and not knowing how to fix them. I'm losing my grip on things daily and I think it's time I try harder. I will try harder, but dammit...will it be good enough.
I've been a shitty person, and I wish for pennace, I do. I need forgiveness and redemption..for years of pain I've wrought. Who can give me such forgiveness? Me, and only me really, but for some reason I won't do that. I think I need heavy drugs or therapy or some combo of both. I need to unravel the person I've become. I used to be a nice person, but now I'm just jaded and hateful. I think I thrived on it for so long. It's overcome me and I just wish for a cure. Not even a cure really just some treatment. My loved ones deserve so much more than what I've been giving them.
Is it possible to be redeemed? Or do we just have to live and suffer? It's really depressing to think that change is impossible. I have to find my faith again. I gave it all up when I got sick I think. I've not been the same since. Sometimes I wish I could go back to being that person. I was biologically abnormal, but at least I felt more sane back then. It's all in my head I know, I know.
I wish I could love stronger and harder and more pure. I wish I could remove the shackles of the past and become whole for once in my life. I fester, I rot and I shun the love of people that I should be embracing. How sad.
I pray to any diety that will heed my cry for help.
Apr. 8th, 2007 @ 12:50 am
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| » Brought to you by the letter....H |
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If you want to play, just say so and I'll assign you a letter. Then you take that letter and come up with a dozen or so songs that begin with that letter. Don't forget to name the band too!
1. Highway to Hell - AC/DC
2. Hey Jupiter - Tori Amos
3. Hall of Heads - They Might Be Giants
4. Hanging on the Telephone - Blondie
5. Hello Goodbye - The Beatles
6. Hole in My Heart (All the Way to China) - Cyndi Lauper
7. Heaven Is A Place On Earth - Belinda Carlisle
8. Help! - The Beatles
9. Heroes - David Bowie
10. Hung Up - Madonna
11. Head Over Heels - Alanis Morrisette
12. Holding Out for A Hero - Bonnie Tyler
ok...who's wants to play???
J.
Apr. 3rd, 2007 @ 10:03 pm
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| » Yes, Michigan!.... |
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This weekend I was fortunate enough to get to finally see Hedwig and The Angry Inch live on stage in Lansing, Michigan. Randy took me back to his old stomping grounds and the theater that he was once a part of to see it. It was an extraordinary performance overall, though I didn't much care for the guy who played Hedwig. It wasn't that he wasn't any good, he was in fact very, very into the part. I just didn't like how he played Hedwig off as a ditzy airhead type. I've always seem Hedwig as a strong, intelligent type. Oh well, actor's prerogativeI guess.
I also got to visit a few unique spots around the University in Lansing that Randy took me to. The most interesting of which was a place called "Bubble Island." I kid you not....they serve tea with gummy things in it...yeah...I know...gross and weird, yes? Not at all, it was quite good. I've never heard of the concept before. I had some sort of Blueberry thing with multicolored jelly pieces. It was quite tasty and now I have something new that I like. Now I have to find someplace to get it in Indiana...fuckers...they know it's addictive I'll bet.
Overall it was a fabulous weekend. It was strange for Randy to be back in the town where he used to live with his ex. I know it caused him some sadness and pain. He tried to hide it the best he could, but we all know I can see through that kind of illusion, don't we? I hated it that I couldn't comfort him really. All I could do was be supportive and try to make sure he didn't let the past interfere with having a good time in the present. I even offered to slap around some people that made him feel bad when he saw them. Not that I'd really just randomly kick someone's ass like that, but if he really wanted me too, I would. I'd fight a whole army if I had to just to keep him safe and protected, but he knows that. I know it's all part of his recovery from the shit he went through with Ryan and I'll help him in any way I can, as I've been there myself.
Not much else to say right now other than I wish the laundry would hurry the fuck up already...I'm so ready to go home and take a shower...ugh...
Bom Dia,
J.
Mar. 26th, 2007 @ 09:28 pm
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| » Karaoke, Drinks, Unconscious Boyfriends, and Lost and the Airport |
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Hello out there to my faithful followers...yes all 2 of you. I come to you this evening to lay out the events of my weekend for you to fawn (or yawn) over.
Randy's trip went well and he returned home a few hours before I got home from work on Friday. It was so nice to have him back home again. I know it was only like a day and a half, but it was tres lonely here. Thankfully I had the Beagan to keep me company. He's a good listener, but sucks at the talking. Anyhow, I digress. I gave Randy half of his birthday presents (the others are arriving via mail) and then we just relaxed at home for most of the night. We started watching Infamous (which I really want to continue to watch) but we both were so worn out that we just went to bed.
Saturday, Chelle came up and treated Randy and I to lunch at Panera bread and then came to see our new place and have an ice cold Blue Moon (yum.) It was certainly nice to see her after all these months. Saturday night was the real treat though as we went out on the big town to celebrate Randy's big 3 0. Our troupe consisted of myself, the birthday boy, Aubry, Topher, Caryn and Carter. We all at first convened at Carter's house at it is, of course, the headquarters of all our troublemaking in Indy. We did a little pre-partying, Randy included (who really likes So Co it would appear). After that is was off to a really fucking fun karaoke bar in Carmel called Nippers. I wasn't sure about it when we first walked in but we had an absolute blast. Of course we were the loudest, most obnoxious, opinionated AND fun people there, I mean DUH. Caryn blasted out a wonderful rendition of "Strawberry Wine" while Randy sang an absolutely dead on "Someone Saved My Life Tonight." I swear I almost cried at how good my guy can sing, he's really amazing, I can see why he does so well performance wise. Topher, Aubry, Caryn and I also sang 9 to 5 by Dolly Parton, although truth be told, we let Caryn do most of the singing :-) In between the singing and the yelling and dancing with odd scary people, we all managed to put away 5 to 6 rounds of Long Islands which got us all well....fucked up beyond belief. Randy, who isn't a big drinker at all, was so cute (but then he's always fucking cute) in an inebriated state. About 2 am we all piled into Carter's car again and headed to the Steak and Puke for the quickest after drinking eating binge I've even experienced, as we were all about to pass out (and a couple of us did just that right there at the table.
Sleeping arrangements last night were...entertaining....Caryn, Randy and I in Carter's bed (a Justin sandwich!), Aubry in the papasan, Carter on the couch and poor Topher on the floor, who had to work like two hours after we got home. Topher forgot his phone charger at Carter's and we tried to return it to him at the airport, but my efforts were in vain as I could not find him and the people he works with AND guest services at Indy International both suck when it comes to, oh I don't know, HELPING! Anyhow I walked around for a bit not knowing where to go in the effing airport but finally admitted defeat and left only to have Topher call me on my cell about 15 minutes after we left...sigh...I felt bad.
It was a wonderful weekend and I am again reminded how goddamned lucky I am to have such a wonderful man and partner in my life as well as the best friends that any person could ask for. I hope to have them ALL around for the rest of my life. I am blessed, and I hope they all think they are as well.
So now, after coming down off the biggest hangover ever, and the worst caffeine deprivation that I've ever experienced...I'm doing my Sunday night laundry at Mom's house. She made Randy a birthday dinner of barbequed spare ribs with all the trimmings. It's been a great day.
I hope you all are well and warm...remember Spring is coming!
J.
Mar. 11th, 2007 @ 10:11 am
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| » Silence is not Golden |
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I'm home alone for the first time in a looooong time and it's awkward. I don't know what to do with myself while Randy is gone...does that sound pathetic or what? I guess it's just that I'm so totally used to (and happy with) having someone with me at home now, especially someone as wonderful as he.
I had dinner with mom tonight, and comtemplated going to the grocery store but I haven't made it that far yet. I have birthday shopping to do tomorrow and I need a hair cut like no tomorrow.
That's about it from my personal ground zero.
Sleep well my little poppets
J.
Mar. 7th, 2007 @ 09:50 pm
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| » Sing it bitches! |
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Answer all the following questions in the form of song titles and make sure you name the band!
Are you male or female: I Enjoy Being A Boy (They Might Be Giants)
Describe yourself: Bitch (Meredith Brooks)
How do some people feel about you: Basketcase (Green Day)
How do you feel about yourself: Black Celebration (Depeche Mode)
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend: Stupid Girl (Garbage)
Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend: Beautiful Boy (John Lennon)
Describe where you want to be: London Calling (The Clash)
Describe what you want to be: Just Like a Pill (Pink)
Describe how you live: Subcity (Tracy Chapman)
Describe how you love: I'm Walking on Sunshine (Katrina and The Waves)
Share a few words of wisdom: God Save the Queen (The Sex Pistols)
Feb. 18th, 2007 @ 10:24 pm
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Feb. 18th, 2007 @ 04:26 pm
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So here I am once again, back where I really belong, back in happy, safe and relatively normal Livejournal land. It's nice to be back, thanks for having me back to the fold.
So let's see...I'll do a quick rundown to catch everyone up that gives a damn since my last post
I am now a Pharmacy Technician studying to be board certifed :-)
I have a wonderful boyfriend that I now am living with in fabulous Muncie, IN
I am head over heals in love
I'm relatively broke
I have indigestion
But you know what? I'm happy and smiling
Any questions?
Justin
Feb. 17th, 2007 @ 11:17 pm
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| » Yo, I'm like back and stuff! |
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Yes my loyal fan(s), I have returned, as a sorry, lowly refugee from Myspace. Not much to say right now except that I am back on here now and I will be posting on here again and not myspace, cause, well it both sucks and blows. So keep your eyes open!
J.
Feb. 11th, 2007 @ 09:57 pm
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| » Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck! |
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Can life please slow down just for an hour or two? please?
Ugh..
J.
Aug. 6th, 2006 @ 12:42 am
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| » Musing of the day... |
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People who let their children run wild in stores should be killed with piano wire.
That is all.
J.
Jun. 29th, 2006 @ 10:32 pm
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| » It's always something... |
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Have you ever noticed...it's always something...
A series of things you can never live up to.
Too fat, too thin, too tall, too short
and god forbid you be a Republican.
It's seems it's always something.
One trait they can't seem to ignore.
Heaven help you if you speak your mind,
Or tell the truth when someone asks for it.
Fucking hell, it's always something.
Under a microscope your whole life.
Failing to fit it, no matter what you do.
Yet still pouring your heart into it anyway.
I give up, it's always something,
I'll never be what they want.
Alone seems the best, at least I agree with myself.
And hey, my dog really likes me :-)
Jun. 27th, 2006 @ 12:25 am
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10. I hate the way you say one thing and do another.
9. I hate the way you let fear dominate your life.
8. I hate the ways you've hurt me.
7. I hate that you wish for love and don't even really know what it is.
6. I hate the way that you are always second guessing instead of taking risks.
5. I hate the way you can't love me for who I am and realize I get much better.
4. I hate the way you won't get the fuck over it.
3. I hate the way you make me cry.
2. I hate the ways you've made my life difficult.
1. I hate how you look at me in the mirror everyday.
Jun. 20th, 2006 @ 09:10 am
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LJ Interests meme results
- anita blake:
Anita Blake is the *anti* heroine from my favorite series of books. She makes her living as an "animator," thusly raising the dead and by slaying vampires...quite interesting really. Oh yeah and she likes to boink the undead and certain werewolves. - british humor:
If it's British and meant to be funny...I like it. The Office, Monty Python, AbFAb..you name it. - crybaby:
A wonderful John Waters film starring Johnny Depp, Ricki Lake and Traci Lords...yes the porn star. - getting pierced:
I like having various parts of my body ran through with sharp metal things...what do you want? - joan of arcadia:
A wonderful, but cancelled show about a girl in modern day somewhere that talks to God. Not something that you think that I'd be into, but it was quite a good show, well acted and had a lot of good messages...not the same old fire and brimstone, you're going to hell bullshit. - mixed drinks:
Alcohol...duh - punk:
A rather broad term defining a sense of style, livng and music...I love it all. See: The Sex Pistols, The Clash, The Ramones...etc. - shaun of the dead:
A British comedy about zombies...imagine it, watch...cause I said so bitch. - the bbc:
The British Broadcasting Company...read a fucking book. - the sex pistols:
A punk band...see above. (fyi: also British)
Enter your LJ user name, and 10 interests will be selected from your interest list.
Jun. 19th, 2006 @ 03:19 pm
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| » I love you...you're better than ice cream.... |
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I am so good, sometimes I can't stand myself...that's right, you heard it here first.
J.
Jun. 16th, 2006 @ 12:14 pm
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